Crap, I'm 30 31

Gavin Eddings

Another year has gone by and here we are at birthday 31. This means I am now 1 birthday away from being as old as my dad was when I was born. That's the biggest and most daunting thought as I head into my 31st year of existence. In some regards, nothing has changed since I did my last retrospective, but in some cases, everything has changed.

The past year has seen me advance in my career which was a nice boost to my money supply and my creativity. It also saw me become more independent in regards to taking control of my own finances, which is very liberating. I've managed to let go of a lot of the things I was holding onto and that were holding me back. All of these things were positive.

The year of 30 was also the year I did drag for the first time. That was an experience that I don't think anyone will be forgetting anytime soon. It also gave me a new respect for women because I have no idea how they manage to make themselves up everyday. The year of 30 was stepping outside of my comfort zone and trying new things. I've reached the point where I know who I am and I'm embracing that person.

I feel like 30 was the year I finally understood my worth as a person, and as a talent. I learned the power of saying "NO" and realizing when things aren't for me. That applies to gigs I book, relationships I have, and my dealings with others. I've learned that trusting my gut is often the best way to handle things.

The only downside to getting older is that I am starting to feel old. I can basically sum up how I feel on this 31st birthday like this:

I don't love that feeling, but I'm still in relatively good shape for someone in his early 30's. I can't complain too much.

The goal for my next year is to work on improving my relationships in regards to dating. I should probably settle down but I don't want it to be with the wrong person. I have a tendency to overthink things and that is something I need to work on. I need to learn to enjoy the small things and know that it's about the journey, not the destination (or whatever cliche office poster you'd like me to quote).

Regardless of what happens, here's to 31 and I hope you'll go on the ride with me!